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Week 4

One of the things I've been noticing since I've been eating better is the effect that various foods (or lack thereof) have on my body. If I'm feeling lethargic, I eat some complex carbohydrate and a protein, or frankly, just a protein and I feel better in about 10-15 minutes. If I eat a mix of protein and simple carb (like sushi) I can literally feel a tiny little bit of euphoria in my brain.



Some of these habits are set and are working out well. Now that I think of it, I didn't crave a diet coke when I woke up this morning. Although I do really look forward to my mock mocha at 10am-ish !



Week 3 wrap up

I still have to be pretty vigilant around my triggers - cookies have to be wrapped up and not easily accessible. I was at a ladies happy hour last week and I really had to plan out what I was going to eat when I got there. I stayed close to the veggies and the tortilla chips with salsa and AWAY from the chocolate. I also brought my own seltzer to mix with the wine. I did so good all night. But towards the end, I wasn't on guard and wound up eating three individually wrapped ghiradelli chocolates in pretty quick succession.



I'm also struggling with my free day - I'm eating kudos granola bars and drinking diet coke and eating whatever sweets I can get my hands on just because I can. And that's not the point of a free day.



When I think about the lack of sweets in this new life in the abstract, it's pretty depressing. I see a week stretching out before me with no sweets except on Saturday night. But day to day I seem to manage better.

Here we go again.

At least 3-4 times a week for the past, maybe 8 years (with the exception of when I was pregnant or nursing) I have gone to bed feeling some sort of negative emotion over my eating that day. Sometimes depressed, or sad, or annoyed, or mad at myself that I couldn't stay away from the sugar.

This time it's different.

And I go to be feeling happy, and proud, and even more determined ! It's working - IT'S REALLY REALLY WORKING THIS TIME !!!

I'm doing weight watchers on my own. Yes, WW works if you work it. And I've collected enough supplies over the years that I know what to do. I'm also going to jazzercise at least 2-3 times per week. I plan to go 5 times per week but something usually comes up a couple times. Two times per week is totally manageable unless Mr. Quimby is gone for a protracted period of time.

I'm going through and backdating entries so that they appear in an order that somewhat makes sense.

I AM DOING IT !!!